I have had a trying couple of days. In my sadness, I asked God why was I being hurt. I had to remember that this is God’s plan, not mine. He doesn’t have to explain anything to me. I just have to have faith. I grew up Catholic. Very faithful. But when I moved out of my parents house, I just stopped going all together. Not because I didn’t believe anymore, it was just from laziness.
When I started dating my 2nd husband, Greg, my religious beliefs changed drastically. He challenged me as I was never before. He was a new born-again Christian who was going to a spirit filled Non-Denomination Church. I was hesitant to get involved with someone like that, as you could imagine, but I just couldn’t help it cuz he was so cute. I got totally sucked in. While dating Greg and through our marriage, I went to church with Greg at several different places. We joined Non-Denominational, Baptist and Assembly of God Churches. Greg taught me how to pray differently than I had ever done. We read the entire bible together. He helped me raise my daughter in a very charismatic way. To this day, I feel so honored to have been influenced by Greg in so many ways. He really was my best friend and partner in life. I know my daughter and I will always love Greg for the rest of our lives in a very special way.
But…. I divorced Greg 7 yrs into our marriage and went right back to the Catholic Church. I felt like I betrayed my religion. It felt so much like home when I entered the Catholic Church again. I can’t really explain it. I have not regretted it since. It’s what I know and what I love. I know Greg meant well with me. I learned so much while I was with him and the “other” churches. But it just wasn’t me.
I feel secure in my faith at this stage in my life. I feel right with God. I often question things and still worry but I KNOW God is in control.